Just checked my online BMI.. exactly 20. SO 18- is underweight and 24- is healthy weight. I am 2 away from underweight and my heart sank at the number. I am 9.7stone, i need to be 8.9stone. I’ve come a long way from 11.7stone and I do look in the mirror and like my body, but that’s not enough- it doesn’t seem factual, I shouldn’t feel happy unless the BMI chart says that I am thin.

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Haven’t been on here in weeks! But it’s nice to see that I have lost 4 pounds since then. Not much but slow weight loss means a low chance of sudden weight relapse and gain :-)

9.9stone this morning

A year ago I was likely 11.7stone ish? How awful that I let people see me like that

10.1 FINALLY! But I am going away with my friends tomorrow and they’re planning meals out.. I dont eat in the evenings and for purely that reason of trying to think of an excuse at why I can’t eat, makes me not want to go. Holding myself back in life- hm.